it's digging me

I know how somebody feels when there are being so dramatically emo in action. I found out that I soon to be that kind of person while I keep telling others not to do stupid action, but it seems like couldn't control. Yet, I still tell myself it can be fix.

But the problem is I don't know where to fix. I'm so emotional down especially this few days. But nothing harmful to me is happened. And I do not know where to start fixing it. Someone please give me some guidance to lead me back to my daily life, do my assignments with passion, and be enthusiastic once again.

P/S: Alcohol do not help in solving problem.

It has been a long time

Recently? It's not recently that I got this weird feeling.. As my friend, I guess they knew about this if they take noticed in my action and my mood. But, I just can't find any answer to help out with my problem. What could that be?

Yes, I'm lost, lack of something, my feeling is something like in searching of something.

Things has changed so far..
What is that one thing that I lack of which will bring me back in good and motivated condition?
Perhaps a travel to rural area? Alone?

Back to Penang

Penang is my father's hometown, which also a state that I respect for. Penang was being called as the food paradise city - Gun n Roses. The main purpose of going back was to celebrate my grandmother 79th birthday. So with no doubt we start our engine at the time of 7am with the date 29/9/07.

We always stop by in IPOH for breakfast then only we proceed to Penang. So of course, we meet up with my auntie and kids for breakfast. We had IPOH dry curry mee. After this, my mom came across with a boutique in such a coincidence where my mom said wanted to be there but my dad refuse because of he is not sure how to reach there. So just after the breakfast, we walked out the shop and here we are, that boutique just right opposite of the shop, so my dad is speechless by waiting my mom to finish her shopping.

Ipoh Dry Curry mee

Jun PinJun Ren

Around 11am, we start moving again towards Penang. The trip was fantastic with the weather outside, it was cloudy. So is a good day to drive. I guess. When we reach Penang, here comes the rain. pouring all over the ground. Luckily it was not a long one. So we decided to get the ferry to transport us to the island of Penang. It was cold and windy because of the after rain weather.

Parent and Auntie Robert

Best Describe the weather

After we reached the jetty of the island. We drove to Fort Cornwallis for some photography works and visit while we wait for my uncle to meet us up there for foods in New World City. It was a newly built structure. Which had a lot of stalls from outside the street last time and shifted in there. So it was once a good food from them last time, but due to the rental fees or something which causes them failed in remaining the same flavour.

After that, we proceeded to our hotel and got checked-in. So relax a while with the view of city, Georgetown. And do some cleaning for our body and get ready for dinner to celebrate my grandmother's birthday. It was a normal, typical Chinese restaurant. But the truth is, they provide excellent taste of food and creative way of cooking - they deep fried the fish bone and fried the fish with sauce. It's a two way cooking with one fish. So I called it a creative way of cooking. You might have eaten this before, but is new to me.

My Grandmother

Later, we wanted to get a walk along Gurney Drive, but it was packed with peoples and cars there. With full of performances over there, but we could not find any parking, so get back to hotel and sleep well.

Next day, it will be eating day as well. Beside that, we visited couple of relative. And of cause my cousin which is so cute enough not to let me go.

Kelvin Quah

On Monday, it was the leaving day. So had breakfast and back. Along the way, we drop by IPOH again for foods. We had their famous Ipoh Sah Hor Fan and lots more.

Since this trip, I have a bigger stomach now. Too bad.
This blog prove that I love kiddo...Haha

Days of horror

Sorry for being away for quite some time. Is not that I am lazy to write something new, but I had been too busy rushing my assignment before this, after my assignment, thought that it will be free and easy day to go, unfortunately my house maid got her contract end with us, and went back to Indonesia. So I got to do the house chores since I'm free from assignment and classes to attend.

This sounds just too ridiculous for those who knows me that I will be doing the house chores. Never mind, I already expected that friends of mine with there first impression after knowing this was "OMG, you did house chores?" Nothing to be surprise, yes, some of my friend did said that.

Beside being busy at home, I got to work for extra money out there as well. So it's like giving myself another burden thing to do. But of course, this is what I have chosen. BTW, it's over. I mean the work, not the house chores. But i'm still in my agent waiting list for another job to accept.

Not only this I have done before today. I got an freelance project with 2 of my friends to design a waiting lounge for a customer of ours of course. Keeping myself busy, but I still got my free time watching movies in HBO. Haha, sounds so easy for me. But I can ensure that nothing is easy in this world unless you have mastered it. So I got to continue with it, I will not fail myself just for this few thing.

If you want to have a laugh, watch this

Thought of having a break for myself with friends since I'm always at home with parent for dinner. So went out quite a few times with them, for movies - I now pronounced Chuck and Larry. It is a funny movie which you could laugh your ass off the seat - Maybe. And of course drinking session with them.


When you worked, you learned.
When you start to involve yourself in something, you start to learn how to give commitment in that something.

Not really that horror, but is a must do thing in one's life.

Secret

How long can a secret keeps?
A long period? or whole life?

If you can keep this secret for whole life, I'm sure enough that you have been suffered for keeping it in your life. If you were to told me, is fine to tell someone about it after a period, I mean a long period. That will be true and fair enough.

The differences between both of these are keeping it for life, you will suffer for life, but you gain respect from the secret. On the other hand, keeping it for a long period and tells out are good to your self and away from suffocation. But this gain no respect from the secret. Which do you want to be?

I believe this happens all the time to us. Not just you, but many. Some are bitches enough to tells it out later right after she knows. This person knows the knowledge of sharing. But some they keep to them self and will not tell others forever, since it's a secret. This person knows the definition of secret. This is one more type who keep their secret and finally spill out, this person knows the law of happiness. Which kind are you?

Did you suffer from keeping secret before?

Think like a fish, you will know why...

( Either you eat the smaller fish or eaten by bigger fish)

best describe me

Mayday Parade - Miserable at Best

Katie, don't cry, I know
You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so
Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
You're all that I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay
Because I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it
So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
Ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh
And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly
So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
But without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
Oh, without you I'll be miserable at best

Updates...

Hello fellow readers,

Just to inform you that I am not going to updates any of my current events, or situation. That's just because I found no time to write long, but just this. Hope you guys will forgive me for not updating some motivated stories and share my current situation with you, but just busy. That's the only words I can said so... Will update soon after my final week.

Anyway, is our big day coming soon, the independence day of Malaysia. Hopee you guys will enjoy this big event with your loves one and cherish each other eery moment you can... Bla Bla Bla... Shit, this is so informal...

Just wnjoy your holiday and Happy merderka Day...